life as an eeediot.

what a terrible night of pain and no sleep. And because I am tired and emotional from the lack of sleep and the horrible pain, there was a bit of womanly weeping last night. Missing people, hurting, feeling alone, hurting,  feeling like an absolute fucking loser. And I had my favorite dream ever! I had a dream I was kissing an holding my ex again... It was so real I was convinced that it was... only to be let down completely when I woke up. Like a fucking kick to the stomach.... followed by an embarrassing period of weeping. 

yep. 

I miss that girl so much...  

anyway....

My boss is kicking my ass into gear and is helping me see what I need to start school. He thinks for some reason or another I would be an awesome teacher... and the kids at my school agree. He told me I could get my BA in a year and a half. So, I actually am pretty jazzed about that. Wouldn't mind actually having a "career". Poetry tonight... no joke. I swear ;)