The best thing about life, Is knowing you put it together

"They look like big strong hands... don't they?"

Water rolls down the skin like tiny beads..
Eyes close so that they might see.
Illum tangendo (touching him)
This sun is a star in someone else's sky
Illum tangendo (touching him)
This moon is making someone cry...
Illum tangendo (touching him)

Captain PirateFace say's "Ahoy!"

Captain PirateFace say's "Ahoy!"
Updated by, Captain PirateFace

The Captain


This is not an Exit

Never Say Die!!!

"the tigers have found me
and I do not care."

Charles Bukowski

there is no fear here

there is no fear here
there is a fear here

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

my god how my patience wanes.

I am at work right now and I could easily snap today as my patience is at it's very limitied.

Why do people think they deserve things they have not worked for?
What kind of fucking bullshit is that eh?
I am so fucking sick of being bled fucking dry.
But what the fuck ever.
I don't fucking care anymore.
I am just sick to death of people trying to fuck me over at every point.




I hate feeling mad and annoyed like this.
I just have this feeling I am getting screwed over all the time.

fuck it.

I am trying to keep calm and breath, breath, breath through my nose and feel it rise in my chest. And I am trying not to come unglued. I am trying not to lose my cool and explode. I want to scream and cry and lose my God damn mind but I am trying to remain calm.

breathing in.

breathin out.

breathing in.

breathing out.

oh and here is some writing...

Keeping Calm.

Eaten alive?
Smiling into the face of unknown voids and
deep dark chasms.
Be a Hero.
Be Brave.
Be a man little boy...
Just for one night.


Anonymous said...

throw a light bulb at a wall, or in a trash can (so you don't have to clean up a mess) my favorite thing to do. The sound of the glass breaking calms me down. I know, weird.

Benjamin Hall said...

kerplunk said...

sorry to hear your day was shit. i hate days like that, but at least you got a cool poem out of it!

sometimes, when i'm super frustrated, i play out a scenario in my head where i just go crazy at throwing computers, screaming my head off, knocking shit this guy

i think of this shit, and then i laugh to myself. always makes me feel better haha ;)

How can you save me when you can't save yourself?

"nothing can save
it keeps the walls

Charles Bukowski