The best thing about life, Is knowing you put it together

"They look like big strong hands... don't they?"

Water rolls down the skin like tiny beads..
Eyes close so that they might see.
Illum tangendo (touching him)
This sun is a star in someone else's sky
Illum tangendo (touching him)
This moon is making someone cry...
Illum tangendo (touching him)

Captain PirateFace say's "Ahoy!"

Captain PirateFace say's "Ahoy!"
Updated by, Captain PirateFace

The Captain

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This is not an Exit

Never Say Die!!!





























"the tigers have found me
and I do not care."

Charles Bukowski

there is no fear here

there is no fear here
there is a fear here

Thursday, June 30, 2011

The captains return.

This random little tiny kid came over to Gabriel and turned his gun sideways a few feet away from Gabriel's head and said bang... I missed the coolest picture ever by seconds but... you get the idea with the picture above... "He turned his gun sideways! It's a killshot!..." hehehe... crazy ass little kids.
Humancat.

My hero brandon brown

Have you ever been to Heaven at night?

Man Oh, I need what the world can't give me (cant give me)
Can't give me
Man Oh, I see what the world can't show me (cant show me)
Can't show me
Dog, Oh, I like what the world can't give me (cant give me)
Can't give me
Dog Oh, I sing but the world can't hear me (cant hear me)
Can't hear me







Oh Boy! A whole weekend to do whatever my lady and i wan't to do.... Who's the big winner? 
The Captain's the big winner!!! Did I mention how damn nice it is to be in Love? Well it is you rat bastards!








 a place where the shadow can't find you

my bones ache
my muscles sore to the touch
from playing these cat and mouse games...
so sick of those games

i sought out solitude
a place where the shadow can't find you
in a dark and quiet place where sins are hidden
where nobody can speak my name aloud

i need a faraway place
where beauty is everywhere...
where my name isn't just forgotten
where i am reinvented

i am so tired anymore that my dreams bleed into my reality
that my sanity is being tested
i taste salt water in my throat choking me
drowning me...


every day i take a breath













Captain PirateFace



Wednesday, June 29, 2011

soon the dawn will come and you'll be on your way....

Why are my friends fucking morons?

Shit... i would settle to be buddys with Busey.
seriously...

i only have a few... but most of them seem "Clinically Retarded"






i need more friends... 










               Bursting inside

                       Bright lights 
                        high energy
                     heart bursting
                         love overflow
                sick stomach
                  panic ensues 
                breath easy
                          little fella








And the long battle of wits began between the worlds biggest idiots.

















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Yeah Fuckers i can actually kiss a girl! ;)


It's just nice to be cared about again...



by such an amazing girl..

thank you Briana












Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Haha..

So... just ran out of gas on russell and stephanie... No joke. But fare not my worried friends! My hero Brandon is on the way with a can of liquid gold.
Capt.PirateFace

Monday, June 27, 2011

This day has consumed me.

This day has consumed me. I just need to not be myself. No messing things up. Not going to lose another.
Capt.PirateFace

Sunday, June 26, 2011

At zee park with zee boy....



Now.
Capt.PirateFace

When you think you've had to much of this life...to hang on.



i feel that i can embrace all emotions with a disquiet that confuses those that love me most.

sheesh.

i have been "off" this weekend but i am in repair mode... my shit will be back to fresh again yo.

sometimes i hurt a bit. sometimes i die a bit. sometimes i giggle like a wee little girl.














Breaking habits 

He used to snort pain pills...
and speed.
and love...
right into his fragile and sick brain.
he used to be sweet and kind.
he used to care...
now all he does is write shit poetry from what I hear..
i heard he got better and is doing ok...
but you know he's probably dead.

































Sounding out

my breathing in sync with my imaginary ocean wave beyond my reach
far away from this desert.
i have been stranded here for years
born here... dying here. getting older here...
my vision fails a little now and my hearing is even worse...
but i feel given the circumstances... 
i am ageing well.
i like the little grey hairs i find on my head.
it means i am alive.
that i beat the odds and all those fuckers who predicted me dead were wrong
dead wrong
many of them dead now themselves....

so i walk with more pain these days but i walk taller
and the shitty one hundred degree weather will not beat me down
i am a survivor
sin city has taught me to be...

though i cannot lie i find a strange calm wash over me on those nights i can enjoy the city from afar 
and actually see the stars in the sky 
usually blotted out by las vegas glitz.

i live... and breath and sway
like my ocean so very far away.
Captain PirateFace













































Amazing Live Version of the Video at zee top of this post...




and i leave you with the most amazing R.E.M. song ever written...



Goodbye Horses


These Guys are awesome... great weird ass video.


Saturday, June 25, 2011

We have learned to master everything... Except our hearts.
Capt.PirateFace

Me

Me...
Capt.PirateFace

My boy...

Gabriel.
Capt.PirateFace

Tired and feeling spent. Waiting for what i dont know...
So... Guess who gets to crap blood for a week and a half due to stress and craziness of this week topped off by last night? me!
Capt.PirateFace

....................................................... Jinx! (you dumb bastard)

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i speak to soon? was i too quick to assume it's perfection?? who the fuck knows.... obviously not me. 

Friday, June 24, 2011

my girl...

My god...


She loves me...

we fell all the way down and when we hit the bottom... it wasn't so bad.




Soooooooo..... my peep's.... my voyeurs.... my invisible fan club.... we meet again.


i hate to speak this aloud for fear of ruining it (let alone type it) but...


i have been really happy lately... go figure right?


a few "notes" from my "note pad" :




"i feel like smiling allot lately. i have met that girl i have pined away for... maybe I finally deserve this?"


"here i am... rotating with the Earth again..."








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i have an amazing beautiful, talented and crazy little boy...






i have met an amazing woman...

hours disappear with her... 









and i am madly in love.







so now comes the battle of not fucking it up. here comes the unsure-ness of oneself.  here comes the self doubt... "am i good enough for her?" "she's a 10 and i am a 3"....all that silliness that your humble author brings upon himself... but i shall keep it to myself... well... kinda.





and here is some po-etry....

















Look at them teeth!!!

Snapping and biting as if possessed by Satan.
i can see they are smiling at something...

is it me or my impending doom?
they bite and snap in their own frightening rhythm...
i bob my head along to the beat and back away slowly...

bowing out respectively.   







Wind


now i sit and listen to the wind
for her voice to come whispering past my ear...
and then i remember the taste of her kiss..

her scent...
her touch.
the wind takes me to her when she is away..
it carries my words away.










 We the robots

Training one another... sit. obey. listen. beg. beg. beg.
i smile big smiles and let the ones after me know it isn't all meat and bone.
pain and tears.
that we get to fucking smile sometimes...
and when we do...

god damn...
it hurts so good.


i remember when i used to laugh at my tears...
                       now i just cry when i laugh.








By the way...


R.I.P. Peter Falk....


May you join your fellow "Angels"









and also R.I.P. Random Hero..... You made me smile and laugh for years amigo...
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i hope you all in the big scary world are well... except that one guy.... ;)

Milk and Kisses,

Captain PirateFace









P.S. CHEDDAR IS OFF THE SHELF BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!
i am off my cheddar kick!!!!!!!!!!

Who am i today? No idea....
Capt.PirateFace

Thursday, June 23, 2011

And when something finaly makes the world go "wahu?" i will be there at the ships helm guiding "The Filthy Whore" into the chaos! Laughing...
Capt.PirateFace
It is a o k johnny boy... You can talk to yourself through this blog by texting this bullshit forever!!
Capt.PirateFace
And...... And! If your think you are clever you silly ass pirate... You are sadly mistaken.
Capt.PirateFace
How can i ever really compare? oh shut up you whiny ass pirate!
Capt.PirateFace
Thirtyone and my goofy ass still gets zits... Yay.
Capt.PirateFace

Heat is my enemy. Las Vegas has a nasty hot breath that murders and cooks. Yay for Vegas summers... Sarcasm implied. Where is my ocean? my sea??

Monday, June 20, 2011

I looked into the sky and saw the real color of blue today. I had forgoten what the color had really looked like... I was pleased.
Capt.PirateFace

Sunday, June 19, 2011

We walked slower through the mist and savored every breath as we grew and aged on as others perished around us. i am alive. i proved them wrong.
Capt.PirateFace

Saturday, June 18, 2011

We stand on the shoreline waiting for a glimpse of god but only catch the reflection of a daily dying sun. Over and over it plunges to the sea..
Capt.PirateFace

Now the Captain get's "All the Love!!!!"

TPFR...


True Playa Fo' Real



Love TPFR "Big Pimpin'" Captain PirateFace



What Now???


can you believe that this beautiful girl loves me????


this girl here...
is in love...

with....







me....








yeah... crazy right? i ain't complaining... ;) ;)


Love, Zee Captain


"Sex is kicking death in the ass while singing." — Charles Bukowski

i have been writing... you have been warned... in the meantime here is some poetry by a "real" poet... The man... Charles Bukowski






As Bukowski said:


"there is a loneliness in this world so great
that you can see it in the slow movement of
the hands of a clock.

people so tired
mutilated
either by love or no love.

people just are not good to each other
one on one.

the rich are not good to the rich
the poor are not good to the poor.

we are afraid.

our educational system tells us
that we can all be
big-ass winners.

it hasn't told us
about the gutters
or the suicides.

or the terror of one person
aching in one place
alone

untouched
unspoken to

watering a plant."


— Charles Bukowski (Love is a Dog From Hell: Poems, 1974-1977)


and...


"Pain is strange. A cat killing a bird, a car accident, a fire.... Pain arrives, BANG, and there it is, it sits on you. It's real. And to anybody watching, you look foolish. Like you've suddenly become an idiot. There's no cure for it unless you know somebody who understands how you feel, and knows how to help."
— Charles Bukowski



and...


"I suppose like others
I have come through fire and sword,
love gone wrong,
head-on crashes, drunk at sea,
and I have listened to the simple sound of water running
in tubs
and wished to drown"
— Charles Bukowski (The People Look Like Flowers At Last: New Poems)





Love...


Captain PirateFace


Woot woot says the man with diamonds in his pockets but no fingers in which to grab them. Humanity is terrible and amazing all at once.
Capt.PirateFace
Dont be afraid. Dont mess up. Dont mess up. Dont mess up.... please john...please.
Capt.PirateFace

Thursday, June 16, 2011

And i grin like a lunatic till my face hurts. I can get used to this discomfort... It never felt better to be some thrilled.
Capt.PirateFace
And i grin like a lunatic till my face hurts. I can get used to this discomfort... It never felt better to be some thrilled.
Capt.PirateFace

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I have been so happy and feeling so amazingly lucky lately. It is an amazing thing to find new love. It takes the very breath from my body...
Capt.PirateFace

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

I am awash in passion and life. Thanking big brother karma for tipping the scales in my favor. Not only do my tears still hit the floor. I now smile at the sky

Monday, June 13, 2011

Loud screeching sound followed by this... "Shit! Fuck! Ow! That hurted!" Gabriel Robison . Age 7

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

I am happy... my soul is dancing...

So yeah... without revealing too much i have to say i have met an absolutely adorable girl who is crazy about me and it's a terribly nice feeling to be walking around with... yeah the Captain is in love again.

no i do not plan to fuck it up.










i plan on "winning".













and winning...




 and kicking...

and doing whatever the hell Gary Busey does
















poetry is being written and soon enough will be posted...

Love you all...

Captain PirateFace

How can you save me when you can't save yourself?

"nothing can save
you
except
writing.
it keeps the walls
from
failing."

Charles Bukowski