I seem to be falling? I played myself...

So.


A good friend of mines mother passed away two Saturdays ago. She was driving to Northern Nevada to see her boyfriend and she had a blowout... lost control of the car and it flipped. Her service was last weekend. I have known this lady since I was a teenager and it's just heartbreaking she is gone. Never before had I ever met a more patient and kind mother. 


Just isn't right at all...

Also,

Here is the status on "The Filthy Whore"

My head gasket is blown... since I am not a "car guy" let me explain to you in term's you and I can understand... "My car is fucked." end of story.

The "Filthy Whore" may not sail again... who knows?





Also, no money no honey.









i feel like i just can't do enough. i can't fix enough. i can't love right enough.
i met the girl of my dreams and still find myself slipping into terrible depression...
i don't wan't prescription anti-depressants.. i don't wan't to self medicate.

i just want a step towards normalcy.

my parents are going through shit.
most of my extended family are self serving selfish pricks.
my friends are sporadic and few

it's getting harder every day to smile through the pain.

Captain PirateFace