VD Day

 oh! the joy's of being an over-dramatic lonely fuck.... So today is "Make you feel like dogshit because you are alone day!". One of my personal "least" favorite days of the year. Yeah i am being cynical for sure... if i had somebody in my life maybe i wouldn't be so harsh on the holiday that "pushes" love. All today does is remind me how shitty it is to not have love in my life. 


Today just makes me miss her all the more. 


And it's almost been a year. 


Can't help but wonder how things are for her. 

but Johnny boy... you will never know.


So... Fuck today and I cannot wait to get in a bed and cover myself up and hide away from this shitty day, this shitty holiday and this shitty world as a whole.


Have a non-shitty Holiday for the rest of you, just because i am a miserable prick doesn't mean i don't wan't you (clearly) fine people to not enjoy the bounty's of love. i am just jealous as shit over it...  ;)








Valentine 


I used to open up my eyes in the morning and ready myself for your beauty.
Even after you just woke up I couldn't see anything wrong with the face you would so diligently hide calling yourself terrible names.
I miss waking up next to you.
I miss waking up next to someone.
I miss...
I miss...


i miss you.

But we always miss what we no longer have, can have, never have again.
Cupid has done nothing but consistently set me up for failure.
I can't figure if his aim is off or if that little bastard just doesn't like me?
So the search continues for that one girl who might be able to love me again...
whoever she may be...
wherever...
whenever.


Don't forget me cupid...
















Captain WhinyFace