The captains return.

This random little tiny kid came over to Gabriel and turned his gun sideways a few feet away from Gabriel's head and said bang... I missed the coolest picture ever by seconds but... you get the idea with the picture above... "He turned his gun sideways! It's a killshot!..." hehehe... crazy ass little kids.

Humancat.

My hero brandon brown

Have you ever been to Heaven at night?

Man Oh, I need what the world can't give me (cant give me)
Can't give me
Man Oh, I see what the world can't show me (cant show me)
Can't show me
Dog, Oh, I like what the world can't give me (cant give me)
Can't give me
Dog Oh, I sing but the world can't hear me (cant hear me)
Can't hear me

Oh Boy! A whole weekend to do whatever my lady and i wan't to do.... Who's the big winner? 

The Captain's the big winner!!! Did I mention how damn nice it is to be in Love? Well it is you rat bastards!

 a place where the shadow can't find you

my bones ache
my muscles sore to the touch
from playing these cat and mouse games...
so sick of those games

i sought out solitude
a place where the shadow can't find you
in a dark and quiet place where sins are hidden
where nobody can speak my name aloud

i need a faraway place
where beauty is everywhere...
where my name isn't just forgotten
where i am reinvented

i am so tired anymore that my dreams bleed into my reality
that my sanity is being tested
i taste salt water in my throat choking me
drowning me...


every day i take a breath













Captain PirateFace

soon the dawn will come and you'll be on your way....

Why are my friends fucking morons?

Shit... i would settle to be buddys with Busey.

seriously...

i only have a few... but most of them seem "Clinically Retarded"

i need more friends... 

               Bursting inside

                       Bright lights 

                        high energy

                     heart bursting

                         love overflow

                sick stomach

                  panic ensues 

                breath easy

                          little fella

And the long battle of wits began between the worlds biggest idiots.

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Yeah Fuckers i can actually kiss a girl! ;)

It's just nice to be cared about again...

by such an amazing girl..

thank you Briana

Haha..

So... just ran out of gas on russell and stephanie... No joke. But fare not my worried friends! My hero Brandon is on the way with a can of liquid gold.
Capt.PirateFace

This day has consumed me.

This day has consumed me. I just need to not be myself. No messing things up. Not going to lose another.
Capt.PirateFace

At zee park with zee boy....

Now.
Capt.PirateFace

When you think you've had to much of this life...to hang on.

i feel that i can embrace all emotions with a disquiet that confuses those that love me most.

Weird dreams all night... rabid dogs, broken carnival rides, and old woman crying on my shoulder...

sheesh.

i have been "off" this weekend but i am in repair mode... my shit will be back to fresh again yo.

sometimes i hurt a bit. sometimes i die a bit. sometimes i giggle like a wee little girl.

Becoming formidable

dropping my own menace into society
i felt my blood boil hot and dangerous 

i felt bone splintering underneath the weight of my fists

teeth popping out

nasal cavity crushed along with a terrible broken nose.

broken and fractured ribs.
i used to be a piece of shit.

i used to be formidable.

i hated him so much.

Breaking habits 

He used to snort pain pills...

and speed.

and love...

right into his fragile and sick brain.

he used to be sweet and kind.
he used to care...

now all he does is write shit poetry from what I hear..

i heard he got better and is doing ok...

but you know he's probably dead.

Sounding out

my breathing in sync with my imaginary ocean wave beyond my reach
far away from this desert.
i have been stranded here for years

born here... dying here. getting older here...

my vision fails a little now and my hearing is even worse...

but i feel given the circumstances... 

i am ageing well.

i like the little grey hairs i find on my head.

it means i am alive.

that i beat the odds and all those fuckers who predicted me dead were wrong

dead wrong

many of them dead now themselves....

so i walk with more pain these days but i walk taller

and the shitty one hundred degree weather will not beat me down

i am a survivor

sin city has taught me to be...

though i cannot lie i find a strange calm wash over me on those nights i can enjoy the city from afar 

and actually see the stars in the sky 

usually blotted out by las vegas glitz.

i live... and breath and sway

like my ocean so very far away.

Captain PirateFace

Amazing Live Version of the Video at zee top of this post...

and i leave you with the most amazing R.E.M. song ever written...

Goodbye Horses

These Guys are awesome... great weird ass video.

Captain PirateFace

We have learned to master everything... Except our hearts.
Capt.PirateFace

Me

Me...
Capt.PirateFace

My boy...

Gabriel.
Capt.PirateFace

Tired and feeling spent. Waiting for what i dont know...

So... Guess who gets to crap blood for a week and a half due to stress and craziness of this week topped off by last night? me!
Capt.PirateFace

....................................................... Jinx! (you dumb bastard)

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i speak to soon? was i too quick to assume it's perfection?? who the fuck knows.... obviously not me. 

my girl...

My god...


She loves me...

we fell all the way down and when we hit the bottom... it wasn't so bad.

Soooooooo..... my peep's.... my voyeurs.... my invisible fan club.... we meet again.

i hate to speak this aloud for fear of ruining it (let alone type it) but...


i have been really happy lately... go figure right?


a few "notes" from my "note pad" :




"i feel like smiling allot lately. i have met that girl i have pined away for... maybe I finally deserve this?"


"here i am... rotating with the Earth again..."








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i have an amazing beautiful, talented and crazy little boy...

i have met an amazing woman...

hours disappear with her... 

and i am madly in love.

so now comes the battle of not fucking it up. here comes the unsure-ness of oneself.  here comes the self doubt... "am i good enough for her?" "she's a 10 and i am a 3"....all that silliness that your humble author brings upon himself... but i shall keep it to myself... well... kinda.

and here is some po-etry....

Look at them teeth!!!

Snapping and biting as if possessed by Satan.
i can see they are smiling at something...
is it me or my impending doom?
they bite and snap in their own frightening rhythm...
i bob my head along to the beat and back away slowly...
bowing out respectively.   

Wind


now i sit and listen to the wind
for her voice to come whispering past my ear...
and then i remember the taste of her kiss..
her scent...
her touch.
the wind takes me to her when she is away..
it carries my words away.

 We the robots

Training one another... sit. obey. listen. beg. beg. beg.
i smile big smiles and let the ones after me know it isn't all meat and bone.
pain and tears.
that we get to fucking smile sometimes...
and when we do...
god damn...
it hurts so good.


i remember when i used to laugh at my tears...

                       now i just cry when i laugh.

By the way...


R.I.P. Peter Falk....


May you join your fellow "Angels"









and also R.I.P. Random Hero..... You made me smile and laugh for years amigo...

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i hope you all in the big scary world are well... except that one guy.... ;)

Milk and Kisses,

Captain PirateFace

P.S. CHEDDAR IS OFF THE SHELF BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!

i am off my cheddar kick!!!!!!!!!!

Who am i today? No idea....
Capt.PirateFace

And when something finaly makes the world go "wahu?" i will be there at the ships helm guiding "The Filthy Whore" into the chaos! Laughing...
Capt.PirateFace

It is a o k johnny boy... You can talk to yourself through this blog by texting this bullshit forever!!
Capt.PirateFace

And...... And! If your think you are clever you silly ass pirate... You are sadly mistaken.
Capt.PirateFace

How can i ever really compare? oh shut up you whiny ass pirate!
Capt.PirateFace

Thirtyone and my goofy ass still gets zits... Yay.
Capt.PirateFace

Heat is my enemy. Las Vegas has a nasty hot breath that murders and cooks. Yay for Vegas summers... Sarcasm implied. Where is my ocean? my sea??

I looked into the sky and saw the real color of blue today. I had forgoten what the color had really looked like... I was pleased.
Capt.PirateFace

We walked slower through the mist and savored every breath as we grew and aged on as others perished around us. i am alive. i proved them wrong.
Capt.PirateFace

We stand on the shoreline waiting for a glimpse of god but only catch the reflection of a daily dying sun. Over and over it plunges to the sea..
Capt.PirateFace

Now the Captain get's "All the Love!!!!"

TPFR...


True Playa Fo' Real

Love TPFR "Big Pimpin'" Captain PirateFace

What Now???

can you believe that this beautiful girl loves me????

this girl here...

is in love...

with....

me....

yeah... crazy right? i ain't complaining... ;) ;)

Love, Zee Captain

"Sex is kicking death in the ass while singing." — Charles Bukowski

i have been writing... you have been warned... in the meantime here is some poetry by a "real" poet... The man... Charles Bukowski






As Bukowski said:


"there is a loneliness in this world so great
that you can see it in the slow movement of
the hands of a clock.

people so tired
mutilated
either by love or no love.

people just are not good to each other
one on one.

the rich are not good to the rich
the poor are not good to the poor.

we are afraid.

our educational system tells us
that we can all be
big-ass winners.

it hasn't told us
about the gutters
or the suicides.

or the terror of one person
aching in one place
alone

untouched
unspoken to

watering a plant."

— Charles Bukowski (Love is a Dog From Hell: Poems, 1974-1977)


and...


"Pain is strange. A cat killing a bird, a car accident, a fire.... Pain arrives, BANG, and there it is, it sits on you. It's real. And to anybody watching, you look foolish. Like you've suddenly become an idiot. There's no cure for it unless you know somebody who understands how you feel, and knows how to help."
— Charles Bukowski


and...


"I suppose like others
I have come through fire and sword,
love gone wrong,
head-on crashes, drunk at sea,
and I have listened to the simple sound of water running
in tubs
and wished to drown"
— Charles Bukowski (The People Look Like Flowers At Last: New Poems)




Love...


Captain PirateFace