and it's like the book says....

I am just too foolish to give up on falling in love again completely.                    (still miss ya chedder)

 

i feel like a little boy who just found out superheros aren't real...

we held hands and tried to believe in one another


our hands clasped tight together,
until you started to fade away.
i couldn't hold on to you.
i couldn't hold you.
now these nights are tiring and long
full of strange nightmares and a need to love and explore.
while your shadow skirts in and out of my field of vision.
i know you and yet you cease to exist for me.
i don't know you anymore.
these days i sleep allot, like the cat's we used to love on.
these days i take a breath before i round the corner.
these days i can't even think about you without that tiny little pain
deep in my corroded heart.
these days i let music lull me to sleep instead of our embrace...
as my heart forgets what it's like to properly love somebody.
i keep telling myself...
"it's o.k."
"i will be fine."
"it's o.k."
"i will be good."


i guess we will just have to wait and see.

Fucked in the Face


"What did you just say?" She said
"Fucked in the face.." I replied
"Why in the hell would you say that?" She said
"Just about sums up how I am feeling today" I replied
"Well, that's just rude and disgusting." She said
"Sorry" i replied

Where will we go when they all disappear?


Now...
my hands tremble and shake ever so slightly...
overflowing with black ink pumping through my veins.
through my heart.
When i lie to you i will do it with conviction.
i will make you believe in lies.
My apology will be quick and heartfelt, it will drip with passion
and i will never truly mean it.
But sometimes i will.
When the light's go off for the very last time, i often wonder to myself...
will i still be all alone?

Captain PirateFace