"I felt like crying but nothing came out. it was just a sort of sad sickness, sick sad, when you can't feel any worse. I think you know it. I think everybody knows it now and then. but I think I have known it pretty often, too often." — Charles Bukowski (Tales of Ordinary Madness)
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Monday, July 30, 2012
Aurora Tragedy
When I heard about that bastard killing a bunch of people... doing something I hold very sincere.... seeing a movie on the big screen, I was mortified. All I could think of is I hope somebody gets to enjoy killing that murdering fuck. What a low and cowardice way to attack and kill a bunch of happy, excited people. Of all ages... Six up.
When I see a movie, and I often see them alone... I let the film sink in to my being. I cry, I laugh, I get caught up in the emotional high... and now, it's been taken for a short time.
Not forever though...
as I myself, refuse to let some sick piece of shit have that much power over me. To have that much control of my fear... hell no.
I did finally see "The Dark Knight Rises" it's a very upsetting flick. very tense... very hard to watch, with an amazing last five min that redeems all the uncomfort and panic. What an amazing trilogy...
I walked out not thinking about him (the pigfucker coward child killing piece of shit) at all,
nope my thoughts were exactly...
"I can't wait to see that again" and " Banes voice is kinda cool to listen to"
Love
Captain PirateFace
Long Live Cinema!
Sunday, July 29, 2012
let this be a lesson to me...
and i feel...
i feel more broken these days.
with familiar sights and sounds tearing me apart.
as i cannot enjoy them.
too much panic in my soul.
too much idiot fight in my heart.
which one will abandon me first?
Captain PirateFace
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
Sunday, July 22, 2012
tragic comedy
Its funny... I see all these firends I know.. some I grew up with.. they all have the life I had wanted since I was a little boy. They have their homes and family and love....
At some points in my life I have had all these things and have thrown them away.
I can't find anybody to love me...
And my poor son...
Well.. you know who his dad is.
I deserve all of this.
tragic comedy
Its funny... I see all these firends I know.. some I grew up with.. they all have the life I had wanted since I was a little boy. They have their homes and family and love....
At some points in my life I have had all these things and have thrown them away.
I can't find anybody to love me...
And my poor son...
Well.. you know who his dad is.
I deserve all of this.
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Sunday, July 15, 2012
The Weakerthans - The Reasons
How I don't know how to sing,
I can barely play this thing,
But you never seem to mind,
And you tell me to fuck off
When I need somebody to.
How you make me laugh so hard.
How whole years refuse to stay
Where we told them to, bad dog,
Locked up whining in a word
Or a misplaced souvenier.
How the past chews on your shoes,
And these memories lick my ear.
I know,
You might roll your eyes at this,
But I'm so
Glad that you exist.
How we waste our precious time
Marching in the picket lines
That surround those striking hearts.
How the time is never now,
And we know who we should love,
But we're never certain how.
I know,
You might roll your eyes at this,
But I'm so
Glad that you exist.
I know,
You might roll your eyes at this,
But I'm so
Glad that you exist.
I know,
You might roll your eyes at this,
But I'm so,
Glad that you exist.
Can't Keep Johnny Down - They Might Be Giants
Outnumbered a million to one
All of the dicks in this dick town
Can't keep Johnny down
Men piled up in a towering mound
None of them once has found a way
To keep Johnny down
Spending days by myself
Remembering slights
I'm not a monument to justice
Plus which I don't forget a face
And they can't (down, down, down)
Can't keep Johnny down (down, down, down)
They haven't yet built the man (down, down, down)
That'll keep old Johnny down (down, down, down)
Some dude
Hitting golf balls on the moon
Bathroom in his pants
And he thinks he's better than me
I'm pointing a finger at my own face
They can't know what's in here
And they can't keep Johnny down
Beneath my dignity
To flip off the guy
When he pulls up alongside
To say my gas cap is unscrewed
And they can't (down, down, down)
Can't keep Johnny down (down, down, down)
They haven't yet built the man (down, down, down)
That'll keep old Johnny down (down, down, down)
And they don't (down, down, down)
Don't know what I've seen (down, down, down)
They can't know what's in here (down, down, down)
And they can't keep Johnny down (down, down, down)
